Monday, September 25, 2006

New start

OK, I decided to start over. My first post royally stank so I just deleted it and decided to start fresh :)

My name is Kara. I'm a stay-at-home mom with 2 cute little boys. My oldest will be 2 in just a few days. I can't believe how fast time goes! One day he was this cute little baby cooing in my arms, the next he was learning to walk and say "Uh-oh!" and now he's becoming an independent little person with a mind of his own. Every day it seems he learns something new. And now we are kind of starting potty training. We are going slow and just following his lead, don't want to force him. Some days I think he's so smart and talented, and then I can't help but compare him to other kids his age who are more advanced. Someone recently was saying how their 2-year old little boy already knew all the letters, could count to 10, and knew colors and shapes. Jason knows what letters are but not what each individual one is, doesn't really count at all and doesn't know colors or shapes. I know he's not behind and really just fine for his age, but it's hard not to compare him to other kids his age who are so much smarter than the average 2-year old. I think every mother wants their child to be the best at everything and when they aren't they blame themselves. Maybe I don't try to teach him enough, maybe I didn't pass on any "smart" genes to him, maybe somehow I'm just not a good parent. Of course I know that's not true and my son is perfectly fine, but it's hard not to feel bad about it.

My younger son is almost 4 months old. He wants to be held a lot so it's hard to get anything done with him. He eats all the time and sometimes I can get him to nap a few hours, which is heavenly, cuz then I can get stuff done. He's a very happy baby though, most of the time. He smiles a lot and has a cute little laugh. He can already roll from tummy to back, he has been able to do it for a month, and he tries getting from back to tummy and almost makes it but get's stuck on his arm. My oldest hadn't even rolled tummy to back by this age. My baby just loves to move, he's always wiggling and hates being wrapped up. He wiggled himself off the couch one day and now I can't leave him alone there anymore. I think he'll probably crawl and walk early too, he just wants to move all the time. I'm going to be in lots of trouble once he can move around more!

Naptime is the most relaxing part of my day. The house is quiet, the boys are sleeping peacefully, and I have time to do whatever I want. This is the time I have to catch up on cleaning and spend time online without distractions. I usually do dishes and laundry then sit down to relax. Occassionally they will nap 2-3hrs. It is so nice just to have quiet time. I don't like cleaning, but being able to do it without interruptions is so much nicer than doing it one-handed while holding the baby and the 2-year old 'helping'.

Well, my baby's sleeping longer than normal, I better go check on him.

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